Ok. I am in a really bad state of mind...

Not bad, as in disastrous or emo or upset or angry kind... But bad as in, indifferent kind. My final exam paper is tomorrow and I am in a total "heck care" mindset. And I'm studying because I have to. Otherwise, I'd probably ignore everything Chinese related... ^^"

And this indifference is not just for exams, but for everything in general as well... As I realised from my recent conversation with Kyoya. It's... A rather odd feeling to have actually... It's like my emotional state of mind suddenly went into lockdown mode. So I don't quite feel anything. Hence, the indifference.

And I'm seriously about the don't feel anything part... I can't even feel the stress of exams when it's about 24 hours away... Usually, that stress mode would have kicked in by now. Doesn't help that Kyoya is being all emo-ish over the exams and I can't quite say I empathize... Because I can't feel anything... Zzz...

So... Yeah. My emotional state is currently blank. I can't remember much for my exams and basically I'm screwed but somehow, my head is still in the clouds and all. Earth is not quite registering. Yay.

It's a bad state of mind because I have no idea what to do with it. The only thing I feel is sleepy. And the things I read on the news just make me go "Orh. Ok." and... It's causing a slight internal confusion because what I'm supposed to be feeling is not quite what I am actually feeling.

I mean, sure I wear my heart on my sleeves, but while my emotions are generally muted or minor, I can still feel them. This time, it's... Like it disappeared or something. So... It's not quite a bother, but more of... Frustrating to others I suppose. Especially to Kyoya I guess... XD

I dunno... That's what my emotional state feels to me at the moment at least. Indifferent. =/ *shrugs*

Back to the present?