There is something... I dunno... Odd about knowing there's HO today and not being there to watch it... It was something I did for 2 years. To support my old Hall. (Yes, I'm actually that attached to it.)

But now... Most of the people that mattered more to me when I was in Hall are no longer there... Sure, there are a few, but... It's just different I guess.

There's still a part of me that really wants to watch though...

So... I suppose the most apt words to describe what I'm feeling now are.. "My heart aches, but I need to move on."

I'm such a freaking sentimental person. Zzz. Memories are my treasure... And my memories of hall life always brings a smile to my face. All the chaos and silliness and idiocy and WTF moments are.

Although I can't remember all of it, I definitely remember my feelings from that time. (Yes, my memory is just that sad...)

Sigh... A part of me really miss cheerleading a lot. But... It's not easy letting go. I've been trying, but it keeps coming back to haunt me every now and then. And yes, a part of me still regrets not paying that stupid hall fee...

But I suppose everything has its ups and downs. (I'm trying to be optimistic here.) Sigh...

Personally, I don't think I'm as optimistic as Kyoya makes me out to be... It's just that... HE'S TOO PESSIMISTIC. I have to counterbalance somehow... Hence, my life became a view of rainbows and sunshine. Yay. -_-

Ugh... Ok. Enough emo-ing about HO, or my inability to watch them... I need to focus on my studies... (Or so I keep telling myself...) Ugh. I have no idea how does Kyoya manages everything that he has like that.

... Actually, I do. I just procrastinate too much. =/

Back to the present?