Yay. I had my dose of Sexy today! And a free shot of oxytocin. ~_^
Haha! Today was kinda emo-ish. I was a little bi-polar... Well... Sort of, a little... When I was with Kyoya, I was high as a kite. I blame the hormones. Then later, when I met Sexy, I was more emo-ish.
Though I think Sexy was kinda emo-ish too today. Anyway, we simply met for dinner and stayed till late to chat and stuff. Haha! I don't mind talking to him, though it's his presence that I miss the most. Just... being around him.
Like, don't you ever get that feeling that you just want to be around that person. And sometimes, I don't need to talk. But I don't want to be alone either, kind of feeling...
And talking about such feelings, I'm missing Ochibi like crazy... I can still remember me crashing over at her place whenever I get these kind of feelings and just sit or lie in her room and chill while she does her work, write her story or do whatever she's doing...
And we'd be perfectly fine with us not needing to do anything, though Kyoya says it's a typical guy thing to want to do something. XD Apparently, it's a bit hard for a guy to just sit and chill and do nothing in general...
Anyway, I walked him back to his hall, and he walked me to the bus-stop. And since I was in Hall 16, I thought I might as well just drop by Hall 14 to see the cheerleading people. XD It was a bittersweet, nostalgic feeling. I was feeling a whole bunch of mixed feelings which I can't quite decipher, but I more or less knew what I was feeling... (Ok... That doesn't make sense...)
Anyway, today was a rather great day, I suppose. Though I found out that hugs are seriously like ecstasy pills to me... =X And it takes quite a bit to form that emotional wall to prevent myself from over-thinking things. ... Ok. It takes a bit to build the emotional wall but still enjoy the thrill of oxytocin. =/
What? It's a very happy drug! Almost as nice as adrenaline. =P Hahaha! Anyway, Tamaki was asking if Sexy is my boyfriend. XDDD I was really tempted to say yes, just to see his reaction. XD
Though Sexy won't play along. =( His reputation is bad enough as it is already. I suppose it'll be really REALLY bad if it becomes even worse... Zzz.
And... I have a feeling Kyoya is trying to match-make both of us... I... have my doubts that it will work out... And there are too many uncertain factors for me to even consider Sexy now that I think about it...
But... Whatever. I am just seeing how it will play out. I have a feeling Sexy and I will end up rather emotionally attached to each other... But we won't be together... I dunno. I'm as certain of the future as the next person. =X
So I'll just see how for now. XD