I suppose you've made your point. But still...
I know that I tend to be insensitive...
But... In life, there are those who you need to put yourself in their shoes, some whose shoes are more difficult to put yourself into, and some whose shoes you just don't want to try at all.
As of the moment, A falls into the last category.
It's more of... I'm not particularly welcoming towards those that walk out of my life and want to come back in. What's more, the more I know him, the more I wish he would just stay an acquaintance. Although he definitely wants to be more than that with me.
Zzz... But I don't suppose my mom got it. And I didn't quite know how to explain it to her...
Oh yeah. This whole situation started cos A asked me for a hug, and I outright rejected him. And Mom says I was being insensitive, and "can't you tell he needs some form of encouragement right now?", etc.
I'm sorry. Even with friends, there are boundaries. And I've no intention of letting him cross any of them, nor am I going to erase some of those boundaries just because he needs some form of encouragement.
I know I'm insensitive, I'm heartless, I'm too crude, and I'm gonna end up like Dad with no friends by my side if I'm so selective with my friends, etc.
But... I suppose that why she doesn't understand. I'm nice, but not so nice as to allow anyone who walk out of my life to just walk back in again. Sorry. My life isn't some highway or some pit-stop.
A walked out. And unless there is a good reason, like I really really REALLY want his friendship, I won't let him back in. And sorry, but his friendship is not something I want that badly either...
Mom is... Too nice I suppose... I mean... I do my best not to judge people. Really. It's just that... For some people... ARGH.
Besides, as of the moment, I'm still quite anti-Christian. And it doesn't help he's just like those kind of Christians I'm currently not too happy about, and he caught me in a relatively-grumpy mood.
On the other hand, I suppose I could have handled the situation with more sensitivity. I shouldn't be so... blunt with my words. Oh, and I probably should have paid more attention to A since he was sitting beside me, instead of bothering my brother... Scratch that. If I were in the same scenerio, I would have done the exact same thing.
It's like... Putting Kyoya between Tamaki and BMS(E). Who would he prefer to talk to? Of course, it's Tamaki. So yeah... The feeling is something like that...
Sigh... I guess I should apologise to A...
And while I'm at it... I should ask Kyoya how to wear facades... -_- It seems there are many who wants to see me... Not being me.
My Christian cell wants me to be more... Christian-like. My mom wants me to wear an all-accepting, sensitive, kind-hearted, gentle, etc. one, and eventually, when I go out to work, God know what kind of facades people want me to wear... -_-
But I suppose... That's life, isn't it.