I realise something... Many of the stories I used to love reading, I now can't quite stand reading it. I suppose the immaturity of the content could be the issue... The other issue is probably my own maturity growth.
I used to be able to... swing both ways, so to speak. (Dear God, that sounds sooo wrong...) But now, it's on a one-track road to the other end...
Hm... I suppose it's a good thing... In a sense... In another sense, I'd be able to talk to even LESS people compared to before... After all, talking to a bunch of idiots makes you want to snap at them... But you can't.
But yeah... I've had my fanfiction.net account for a longer time compared to my fictionpress account. And let me say, some of the fanfictions I used to read are really... ... Let's just say it makes me go "OMG. I can't believe I used to read this!"
Yeah. Interesting growth tracker, but somehow it works...
My fictionpress account also has some stories that... make me cringe. Of course, there are some silly, senseless romance stories inside, which I do read... When I'm highly stressed. And others... I doubt I'll ever touch them again.
Of course, this also means the ability to empathise with certain characters are also diminishing. I mean... If the character I'm reading is more... panicky and less understanding, I'd have difficulty understanding that character. And of course, when that leads to trouble, I'd go "Serve you right" while the softer side of me goes "Ooo. Ouch." Haha! There was a time when that softer side of me dominated my personality. Meaning regardless of whether you deserve it or not, I'd sympathise with you.
Now... Well... I'd still sympathise... (I'm not that mean...) but the other side will pre-dominate my thoughts.
This also means more parts of my personality is FINALLY stabilising. XD Haha! It's a little hard to define yourself sometimes, especially when you're still discovering parts of you that you never knew you had...
Though I don't think that this year will be the end of it... If any, I think when I go over to China, my personality will go through another Loop-De-Doo. Yay. Different environments switch my defense modes around. Overseas... Does something real odd to my defense mechanisms in a sense that I become really restless. And it shows through my personality too. Like I'd be snappier, and fiercer. And more impulsive... (Dear God, save me)
Or at least, that's what Aus did to me... I don't know if China will do the same... Hong Kong was too short a period of time to find out... Though I could tell I was somewhere there too...
Kyoya is still my comfort zone, though. Haha!