Left or right?
Initially, it was a question I would never quite consider. After all, I've always thought that my place was in the right. But after circumstances... I'm stuck between where I once was and where I am actually hoping to be.
The left side is actually a much more relaxing place to be at. Although I still fail at trying to figure out what this chinese teacher is talking about... I am really REALLY bad with history lessons. English and chinese, both. =\
Because I just can't understand it. And quite frankly, I don't care who writes what and why and how they wrote it. =( So yeah... History lessons are really bad for me... And my attention span.
Anyway, if you must know... I actually pay more attention at the left side than the right... (Which shows you how "much" I focus when I'm at the right...) And on the left side... THERE'S SWEETIE!!! XD (And Spike, and Hammer, but details, details...) Haha! I think the more time I spend around Sweetie, the more I'm addicted to her aura/vibe. Haha!
She gives a very happy/cheerful kind of vibe to me, which in turn makes me really happy to see her. =^^= Doesn't help that she's super adorable too! ^^" And I have lots of things I wanna learn from her too! (Although I have to get pass that obstacle which is MR...)
But back to the point on left and right. To be honest, the only reason now why I would consider moving back to the right is because of Kyoya.
You could say that I miss him. I miss his bitchiness and irritation and grumpiness and all. I miss the random, near continuous, vibrations of his phone as he messages various people in class because he's as bored as I feel. Oddly enough, I miss the smell of coffee that is always present at his end of the table. XD
Sigh. And after a lot of talking (and joking and playing around) with my brothers today, Sam was being an ass and not giving me the reply that I was looking for (If I ask "Left or right?" He answers "Or!"), but then out of the blue, he commented that I already knew what my answer is. It's that answer that I was hoping for, and I just wanted him to make a decision for me, before I decide to follow or rebel that decision. =P
Personally, I want to stay at the left. I actually like it there. XD Though I'm just a little worried about the intruding part... I mean, Spike and Hammer and the Brain (From Pinky and the Brain, I dunno. That name came to mind when I was thinking of a nickname for him.) said that they don't mind me. And I know the girls definitely don't mind me. (Although I do wonder if they have anything against Spike and the other guys or what...) But everyone else at the back... I have no idea if they mind or not...
... I think I'm considering other people's opinions too much on this matter.
As my brothers would say "If you want to sit left, then just sit left!" And to hell with everyone else. XD Although it's in my best interest that I do not make too many enemies... XD
I mean... I can always go for meals with Kyoya. Just that the environment, the atmosphere on the left side is nicer and better for me. And I think Kyoya would also be happier with more space on the right side for him... You know, in case more people irritate him. XD
^^" It's like... I know my answer, but I'm still afraid to let go of the past. Ugh. I should Dory's (from Finding Nemo) words in mind. "Just keep swimming, swimming, swimming~"