XD What I find very amusing and coincidental is that Kyoya and I both like a song called "Someday". But they're actually 2 different songs, sung by 2 different people. XD

Kyoya likes this OST by IU (Ugh. I really can't stand her...) called "Someday". For me, I like a song from U-Kiss Neverland album called "Someday".

Talk about coincidence...

But I find the lyrics of the song damn nice. (It helps that I love the way they sang it)

Someday
Sometimes hit, sometimes miss, it’s always like that
Just do it right tomorrow, it’s just a small mistake
Sometimes bottom, sometimes top, sometimes number 1
Getting 1st place, you can only go down
Without it, just live without it
It’s just greed you have before you win it oh
Your suffering now is a sign of your hard work
Everybody knows you tried Everybody knows it’s alright

You get some right, you get some wrong
Although tiring there will be days to smile
When you fall down, when you get up
Although tiring, there will be days to smile, eventually a day to smile will come

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It is definitely an encouraging song during this "just-before-exams" period.

And I probably need it. ^^" These few days, especially when I spent time with Kyoya, I tend to get snappier. ^^" Can't help it. Eventually, there are only a few things you can tolerate so much of before you snap. And trust me, I can tolerate lots. So if that person can make me snap, it's quite a feat... =/

That being said, pressing the right (or wrong) buttons can also bring out that side of me more easily. Ugh. I'm not saying you're a bad person or the like, but... YOU ARE FREAKING 23! (or you would be this year) For the love of all things holy, at least ACT YOUR AGE. Your behaviour reminds me of some secondary school kid. Those kind that comes without a brain too.

Ugh. I probably shouldn't be comparing but... Sheesh. Even my brothers are more mature than you. And they're, like, 4 years younger. -_- Says something about you, doesn't it? Knowing your stuff means more than just reading books and expecting all the knowledge to flow into you. Sorry, but life doesn't work that way.

'Sides, you idiots can't see the effect you're having on others, can you? Do you know that most of the class hates you or can't stand you? And the ones that can stand you do so because they're way way WAY too nice.

I'm nice, but not that nice. I have my limits after all.

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I believe I actually only really knew you for 3 years, even though I knew you all my life.

You were my roommate at first, but somehow, we clicked in a way I never quite thought possible and our friendship has progressed till today.

Amazingly, you were the first person I could talk to both online and offline. And I have learned lots about you from your little twits, blog posts and monologues. And I guess, you have been quite an influence on me too. (Kat-Tun and DBSK much?)

You have always been someone I've admired. Sure, you have your weaknesses, but without them, I don't suppose I'd have liked you as much. Haha! In my eyes, you were always an adorable person. (And I guess I had much fun bothering you to exasperation)

And now, I guess it's time for you to leave... To discover parts of yourself that you never knew you had, just like I did. And I pray that you will be safe. And you will learn to be wiser, stronger and more confident over there.

But... I suppose... I am not good at making friends. And there are very few I would call friends, in fact.

You are one of them.

You are the one person I didn't want to say goodbye to. But I know I must.

And I will miss you dearly. I will miss crashing over at your place. I will miss hugging you. (and poking you) I will miss your silly fangirl sessions. I will miss listening to you gripe and bitch about things in general. I will miss how odd you are. (Or as odd as you are to me as I am to you)

I will miss you.

So for now, I won't say goodbye. More of, I'll see you later... We will meet again.

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Harry Potter ask box list.

Harry Potter- Tell about a scar on your body.

It's not very obvious unless you look closely. I have a slice straight down my right calf. It's a really old wound. From primary school. I was carrying Tabby's dog cage to the kitchen when it fell and sliced my calf. (*ouch*) The scar's still there, but not obviously so. It's been years after all.

Ron Weasley- Something you’re afraid of.

PEOPLE.

Some of my biggest social fears include talking to strangers over the phone. Eg. You need to call some bus service provider for transport of a large group (say, 30 people). I would spend at least 1 week panicking over it before doing it. Then I'll panick after calling too. Yeah... I suck at social settings too...

Hermione Granger- A subject you know a lot about.

Eh... I know a lot of random things that I shouldn't know about... My favourite topics are mainly animals and my brothers. =^^= Yeah, I have a brother complex. =/ Deal with it. Anyway, I do know random titbits on most stuff... Though I'm not as pro as Yuki or Kyoya. XD I... am a rather passive learner. Unless I have to learn it, I just take things as they come.

Draco Malfoy- Closest green item to you.

My... highlighter?

Severus Snape- Your favourite alcoholic beverage.

Ooo. I found out from my mom that the red wine I like a lot is called Chianti, from Italy. XD My favourite white/dessert/ice wine is Moscato. For hard liquor, I have to say, I'm quite fond of Japanese XO... ^^" Beer... I'm not too bothered with whatever beer I drink. I want to try more cocktails. ^^

And on hindsight, I think I drink too much... But oh well... =/

Rubeus Hagrid- Your favourite animal.

Wolves. Leopards. Tigers. Hawks. Falcons. ... Erm... I think you get the idea...

Luna Lovegood- Something about you other people find weird.

... Would you like the list chronologically or alphabetically? Personally, I think I'm perfectly normal. It's everyone else that's weird.. =P

Neville Longbottom- Your favourite flower.

Typical traditional red roses. =P I'm a hopeless romantic at heart.

Nymphodora Tonks- Something you would change about your appearance.

My looks I suppose... I often wish I have Yuki's body. XD Curvaceous and all. Although, personally, I don't think I'm that bad. XD I also wish my skin isn't so oily, and my palms aren't so sweaty (though they're much better now). And my chest were larger. Typical female woes. Etc.

Fred and George Weasley- The last prank you pulled on someone, or someone pulled on you.

A certain IDIOT hid my iPad cos I accidentally left it in class. Kyoya told me who took it though. Thank God for people like him.

As for pranks I've pulled... That'll be a secret.

Voldemort- If you were to make a Horcrux, it would be…

My locket. A couple of my more sentimental books. My FOP nametag. My beyblade rings. XD

Moaning Myrtle- The last thing to make you cry.

Reading Kyoya's blog... >.>

Sirius Black- Have you ever taken the blame for something you didn’t do?

I highly doubt so. I’m not so nice.

Dobby- What is your most loved article of clothing?

... My hoodie?

Peeves the Poltergeist- What is the best/funniest insult you’ve used/heard?

I dunno. I forgot... Most of them are by Kyoya though.

Sybill Trelawney- When was the last time you experienced Deja Vu?

It was in a dream... I dreamt I woke up and got ready for school... Then the alarm rang and I woke up and...

Filius Flitwick- What is your favorite spell from the Harry Potter series?

Crucio. I'm sadistic I know.

Lily Potter- Is there anyone you love so much you would die for?

My family. Yuki. Kyoya.

No one else made the list.

Arthur Weasley- What piece of “Muggle” technology fascinates you most?

Holograms. Touchscreens. (How amazing. I know.) And all those latest technology stuff.

Mundungus Fletcher- Have you ever stolen anything?

No. I'm too nice. =P

Viktor Krum- If you were a Quidditch player, what position would you play?

Chaser or seeker. I'm not the defending kind... Sadly.

Fleur Delacour- What physical attribute do you like most about yourself?

My hair? XD Everyone seems to love it and well... It has always been very tamed to me, so I never had problems with it.

Hedwig- What was your all-time favorite pet, or, if you’ve never had one, your all-time favorite birthday gift.

Tabby. She's still my bias when it comes to pets. For those who dunno, she's my beloved Cocker Spaniel.

Albus Dumbledore- What is your proudest accomplishment?

Self-discovery. XDDD Yeah, I dunno myself. Sad, huh? =X

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I had lots of free time during internship today, and I was flipping through my book of notes. (The book was already half-used during Y1/Y2, before I used it again for internship this sem.)

And it was embarrassing, nostalgic and bittersweet to look through what I did through the years... Inside were all my notes for DnD, for Elevate Camp (church camp), and all my enthusiastic cell attendances. XD And all my rantings about YX, especially.

The last part was most embarrassing. The feelings range from "I can't believe I felt like that" to "I CAN'T BELIEVE I ACTUALLY WROTE THAT DOWN" to "Now that I think back, I'm glad it's over".

Haha! My own rants are usually very amusing to read, to me. After all, they're a little dramatic and overly mushy, but completely honest. (I don't usually plan on letting anyone read them after all...)

And now that all that drama is over, I am really wishing I finish up that book fast. So I can throw it away. After all, there are some phases in life you really don't wish to remember (though I have never forgot any of the guys that I once had a crush on...) and some that you don't ever want to forget.

I still have this little red book and a yellow book with all my doodles from sec sch to JC. Of course, some also have doodles from Yuki, which I usually do my best to keep them for as long as possible. Of course, Kyoya would give me that look and tsk at me if I show him those books. XD They're from my sec sch, so they are really full of really childish things. XD

And of course, when I have my childish moments during JC, those books are my outlet too. ^^"

And now as I look back, I realised I have matured a lot since I stepped into Uni. (And I grudgingly admit Ivan also played a part in my growth...) Heck, even my mindset is grown. (Trust me, it was stagnant since sec sch...)

I've become more confident, discovered my empathic side, my emotional side, my feminine side (be amazed. I never knew I can be anything feminine.), etc. Kyoya is also bringing out my snappier side. (Though I still tend to be way too nice for my own good.)

Although my studies were compromised, (heck, no one in JC would believe me if I told them my GPA is below 3.0), but the exchange was definitely worth it.

As for getting what I want... If my grades can't bring me there, I'll use my abilities. There's always more than one way to get what I want. If the front door's locked, I'll use the back door. If all else fails, I'll break a window or something... XD

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