Ugh... This is why I HATE talking to Christians... They don't understand. UGH.

When I was talking to a guy from church on MSN, I was complaining about my module, or more specifically, the lack of time for our module. And he was surprised because he thought it was actually quite interesting.

Hello. Interesting does not mean I have enough time in the world to study for it. And interesting does not mean that my studying speed increases exponentially too. -_-

And when I comment I was so glad that I don't have to sing for choir this week, he was all "Why?! Aren't you glad to sing for God?" Grrr...

Times like these, I wish I can reach over to the other side to punch the person.

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I mean, yes, God is important and all, but SERIOUSLY! I do not eat, breathe and live God. I do not wait on the Lord and do nothing about it. I definitely do not pray about matters and expect them to resolve themselves.

Zzz... And people wonder why I am not attracted to Christian guys...

If they had half of a backbone, yes, I would be MORE interested. But! Zzz! Can't stand guys like them.

Idiots. I swear, the church is full of them.

Sigh. Christians. People of the same religion as me. And I cannot talk to them at all... Zzz.

Back to the present?

Epic Joke of the Week: (It still sets me in laughter)

Darling: Does Kyoya have any disease?
Me: O.O ... Not that I know of...
Darling: Oh! In that case, you help me ask if I can drink some of his water?
Me: XDDD

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Seriously! Of all things to ask, DISEASE? Hahahahaha! Kyoya was quite miffed at her words though. XDDD But it was funny, from a third person point of view anyway. XD

I am still searching for a good story to read. I have yet to get those books which I want to read since... a long time ago...

And I do not want to study my chinese even though the exam is only... less than 3 weeks away!! *SOBS*

The teacher is going faster and faster. Though it isn't hard to understand, it's definitely hard to remember. Especially to remember what I understood... -_-

Tomorrow I have school again. And I have mixed feelings about it.

Sam is starting a business with his friend, but I have a feeling it's gonna flop, unless Sam really learns to wisen up... Sorry Sam. But in business, it's a dog-eat-dog world. If you aren't willing to fight for yourself, sooner or later, someone will take advantage of you and you will lose out.

And now that he's learning driving, he better start learning to plan, organise, THINK and do it fast. That idiot already started booking practical lessons without even doing his BTT. -_- Seriously. Sam.

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I think... The more I hang out with Kyoya, the further I get from BMS(E, N and JY)... I mean... That's sort of to be expected... But... I don't know... It's a rather odd feeling... They physically behind me... But for some reason, I feel really far away from them... =/

As for my Darling... She's really more like a child to me than a friend... XD Fran is more like my sister... Except I hardly see her nowadays... ;_; And I have yet to celebrate Mic's birthday... Which was on 10 FEB!!! AHHH!!! But when I'm free, she isn't, and vice versa... So our tentative birthday celebration date is now 19 March... Talk about belated...

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I talked to my brothers about the guys in my class (and the girls too... But the guys are easier to remember... =X), and after talking about them, my brother hopes to meet them and talk to them someday... Especially Kyoya... XD For some reason, Sam thinks he's cute... =/ I shall not input my comment on that.

Both my brothers like BMS(N) cause they think he's really funny. And they (or at least Sam) can't wait to meet BMS(XY) to flirt with him...

I think my brother has issues... =/

Moving on...

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Onto other really REALLY random things...

I think that BMS(J) (not my Darling) has the hottest body in class... >.> I like her physique a lot... ^^" But that's just me. Btw, it's just a random thought and observation I had.

I gave up trying to win that creature from Miscrit... Cause it just ends with me being more and more upset, and I have better things to devote my energy to.

I lost my Borders Gift Card... ;_;

And I want a Kyle Notebook... INUME!!! DRAW HIM FOR MEEEE!!!

I also want the world at my feet... (Which is technically possible... But it'll look too silly.)

You know your life is sad, if the only thing you look forward to is 13 May, 5pm onwards.

And I know. I'm being hell random now...

Back to the present?

Because I kept losing at Miscrit after my "hell-awesome" combo was broken, and I keep being frustrated and upset over a STUPID game. So I'm doing something different, and hopefully, keep my mind off my loss. Yes, I'm quite a sore loser.

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1. What curse swear word do you use the most?
Damn, shit, bloody... And no, I do not use the "F" word... If I do, I'd probably be on a murderous rage...

2. Do you own an iPod?
iPod Touch... I think...

3. What person on your flist do you talk to the most?
I don't have LJ...

4. What time is your alarm clock set to?
6am... =(

5. Do you still remember the first person you kissed?
Eh... Aside from my family members... I HAVE NEVER KISSED ANYONE BEFORE. (Is that something I should be damn proud of... I wonder...)

6. Do you remember where you were on 9/11/01?
I don't remember... I have memory issues...

But I remembered not really giving a damn about it...

7. Would you rather take the picture or be in the picture?
TAKE. I always feel awkward inside pictures... X(

8. What was the last film you watched?
... ... ... ... ... Eh... Oh! "Shaolin"... I think that's the title... =/

9. Do any of your friends have children?
O.o Not that I know of...

10. Has anyone ever called you lazy?
Not outloud... My dad tends to imply it every other day... Or as long as he doesn't see me studying.

11. Do you ever take medication to help you fall asleep?
I wish. I wish. I wish.

12. What CD is currently in your CD player?
It's been forever since I last used a CD player... But if you're talking about the car's CD player... It should be Sam's 8th Christian CD. ... Or was it 10th?

13. Do you prefer regular or chocolate milk?
Regular. UGH. Chocolate... I have no idea how my brother drinks that stuff...

14. Has anyone told you a secret this week?
Not really... If they did... Most likely, I'd forgotten about it...

15. When was the last time you had Starbucks?
Last year...? Somewhere...

16. Can you whistle?
Yup! I remembered being really proud of it too, when I first started whistling.

17. What is the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
Their looks? Their dressing...? I DUNNO. Whatever stands out to me I guess...

18. What are you looking forward to?
Any day after 13 May and before 1 August.

19. Did you watch cartoons as a child?
Lots. XD I watched Pokemon, Digimon, Beyblade, Groove Adventure Rave, Gensomaden Saiyuki, Samurai X, DBZ/DBGT, Gundam Wing, Yami no Matsuei, etc.

20. Do you own any band t-shirts?
No.

21. What will you be doing in one hour?
Sleeping or studying. Depends on my mood...

22. Is anyone in love with you?
Don't know. Don't think so.

23. What was the last song you heard?
Adam Lambert - If I Had You

24. When was the last time you cried?
Eh... I forgot...

25. Are you on a desktop computer or a laptop?
Laptop.

26. Are you currently wanting any piercings or tattoos?
A TATTOO! But I prefer the airbrush tattoos more... No needles. =D I already have 2 piercings. One of my left ear, and one of my right. -_- (Thanks Grandma)

27. What’s the weather like?
Moody... It looks like it might rain... Or it might not.

28. Would you ever date a girl/guy covered in tattoos?
Not covered, per say... But I don't mind dating guys with tattoos... Depends on the guy.

29. What did you do before this?
I WENT TO SCHOOL.

30. When is the last time you slept on the floor?
Last last week. In Hall 15.

31. How many hours of sleep do you need to function?
Ideally, 20 hours. Actually, about 8.

32. Do you eat breakfast daily?
Yup. Keeps me sane for my 8.30 lesson.

33. Are your days fast-paced?
Yes. It is even faster when you are learning fangji with only 3 weeks left to exam.

34. What did you do last night?
Eat. Sleep. Play. Study (a bit). Sleep.

35. Do you use sarcasm?
Sometimes. Depends on who I'm talking to. If it's my dad... 90% of the time.

36. How old will you be turning on your next birthday?
21 AND LEGAL! Although I've more or less done most of the things considered illegal... I blame my dad. =)

37. Are you picky about spelling and grammar?
Relatively... I do get irked when I received messages with lots of Singlish or written in SMS language (a.k.a. short form).

38. Have you ever been to Six Flags?
What's Six Flags? ^-^

39. Do you get along better with the same sex or the opposite sex?
Eh... It transits with my age apparently... In primary school, it was neither. In secondary school and JC, it was the same sex. In Uni now, it's the opposite sex.

40. Do you like mustard?
No.

41. Do you sleep on your side?
Sort of... Nowadays, I sleep half on my side, half facing upwards... If that sentence made sense...

42. Do you watch the news?
No

43. How did you get one of your scars?
Eh... A relatively obvious scar is one straight down my right calf. I was in primary school and I was carrying my dog's cage/fence to the kitchen, when I dropped it and it sliced my calf.

44. Who was the last person to make you mad?
... My dad? He's the one I usually get mad at...

45. Do you like anybody?
Maybe. Used to. Trying not to. (as quoted from Inume)

46. What is the last thing you purchased?
Food.

47. What side of the heart do you draw first?
Right.

48. Can you dive without plugging your nose?
XD No.

49. What colour is your razor?
White... And purple...

50. What is your blood-type?
O-

51. Who would you want to be tied to for 24 hours?
Can I be tied to the Sandman? D8

52. What is a rumour someone has spread about you?
How many do you wanna hear? So far, I'm freaky arrogant, I'm in love with my classmate, I'm weird, etc.

53. How do you feel about carrots?
They're crunchy when eaten raw... But I prefer them cooked.

54. How many chairs at the dining room table?
6 or 8.

55. Which is the best Spice Girl?
No idea. Don't really care.

56. Do you know what time it is?
4.18pm. And supposedly my study time...

57. Do you know all the words to the Fresh Prince theme song?
What kind of song is that? O.o

58. What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator?
Do my best to calm down. And press for help, of course.

59. What’s your favourite kind of gum?
Zzz... Don't really like gum...

60. T or F: All’s fair in love and war?
It's never fair.

61. Do you have a crush on anyone?
As of the moment. No.

62. Do you know how to use some words correctly, but not know the meaning?
Hm... Most of the time, from the way the words are used, the meaning can be inferred.

63. Do you like to sleep?
Hell yeah!

64. Do you know which US states don’t use Daylight Savings Time?
No.

65. Do you know the song “Total Eclipse of the Heart”?
No.

66. Do you want a bright yellow ’06 Mustang?
XD No. I wanna own a Mercedes or a Mazda one day. Depending on my budget.

67. What’s something you’ve always wanted?
To sleep, dream and never wake up.

68. Do you have hairy LEGS?
XD Eh... No...

69. Would you rather swim in the ocean or a lake?
Lake... I suppose...

70. Do you wear a lot of black?
Not really... At least, I don't think so.

71. Describe your hair:
It's black. It's long. (Too long for my taste...)

72. Do you have entomophobia?
Eh... No.

73. Are you an adult?
... Soon to be...

74. Where is/are your best friend(s)?
Around Singapore... 2 in the East, one really good friend in the middle.

75. Do you have a tan?
Don't think so... Any tan I have would have long faded.

76. Are you a television addict?
No. What's so interesting about the TV anyway?

77. Do you enjoy spending time with your mother?
Hell yeah! My mom OWNS!

78. Are you a sugar freak?
A little... >.>

79. Do you like orange juice?
I'm okay with it.

80. What sign are you?
Gemini. ~_^

Back to the present?

Gonna emo over a game here.

ARGH!!! My Miscrit combo is gone!!! ;_; *sobs* I was at 8 wins-in-a-row... I needed 10 in a row to win this creature that I wanted... And On my 9th battle, I DIED!!! ARGHH!!!! SO CLOSE!!!!!!!!!

And now, I need to start all over again... SIGH.

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Today marks the FIRST DAY OF MY INTERNSHIP FOR THE NEXT 3 SEMS.

XD

It was kinda exciting yet really tiring. ^^" I remember waking up from an epic dream, wondering why on earth did I set an alarm on Saturday. XD Then I remembered the internship. Sigh... Best, my usual empty train from the depot doesn't appear on Saturdays, so I had to ride on a CROWDED train to school. Zzz. And I hate crowds in an enclosed area.

Actually, I hate crowds, period. I love my personal space too much. XP

But today was more of a revision of what we had learnt, so that we are not too blur when we go over to the actual TCM clinic for internship. It was very fun to revisit my favourite module that I have learnt: 诊断. It's basically diagnosis, but it's really interesting.

I could say it's like a puzzle, where I have to use the clues from the patient to find out what is the illness he/she has, and I have to know what 方药 to use to cure the patient.

Except my ability in 方剂 is not very good. So I have to keep referring to the textbook (Kyoya's, actually) And my knowledge is 草药 is also negligible, so I have difficulty modifying the 方 to fit the patient. Zzz...

So basically, I know how to diagnose the patient but I have no idea how to cure him/her. I'm such a wonderful doctor.

But today was good. We formed a group of 9 and further divided ourselves into 2 sub-groups. The other group has my Darling, so I went with the other group. (Btw, I also had a "lovely" reminder that I'm not really considered a girl. Hooray?)

I was really nervous that I would SUCK at 问诊. Cause if I remember correctly, that the section I didn't do really well in. My worst is 望诊, cause my observation skills kinda sucks... Anyway, I realised that in practice, 问诊 is actually not that difficult. I really felt like a detective. I have to ask to get the clues, form hypothesis, find links and evidences among the lists of symptoms, etc.

Although, I suppose we had it easy, because we practised on sample and practice cases. In actual cases, the patient may not have symptoms that fit a 证 so exactly, and may have other non-related symptoms that we may have to take note of. So yeah... It's a lot of fun. =^^=

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My dream last night was odd. Apparently, some 10-year-old-looking girl was trying to take over the world or something by singing. O.o And I was part of the opposition force who is supposed to stop her... Or at least I think I was...

For some reason, the only part about me that I can remember from my dream is me being in some rundown green pub-looking place, and I was supposed to sleep with this person, whose role I have forgotten. Anyway, that person was Sam... O.O But in the dream, he wasn't my brother... More like, my agent... But somehow, I remembered feeling damn awkward in the dream... And no, nothing happened. The last thing I remembered of myself and my brother is both of us staring at each other in shock, with this sense of awkwardness between us.

And the last thing I remembered of the antagonist is her, with short hair (shoulder-length actually), with a crow-looking thing (crow, cause I only remembered black feathers) on her shoulder, and the silhouette of something that looked vaguely like Napoleon in the background. And my section leader was supposed to compete with her in a singing battle.

Odd dream, no?

XD Anyway, it was then my alarm rang, and I lost the pieces of most of my dream.

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Ah well... I have odd dreams, I know. This one's colour theme is more blue and black though... The previous really odd dream I had had a colour theme of purple. That one was way freaky.

I was playing a game of chess (international) with God-knows-who, and somehow it became from me playing chess, to me being inside the chess itself. And the lines on the board are actually rows of buildings, and somehow, the rows of buildings turn into a maze. FYI, everything was glowing a really eerie shade of purple. I also remember that there was someone controlling the whole game. It was a girl who looked like Sadako from The Ring. Except she looks more alive, though equally pale.

The last thing I remembered from that dream is some tarot-looking cards, with the Sadako look-alike telling me in a really creepy voice "There are two gatekeepers". And a gate appearing out of nowhere, with a black swirling vortex within the gate...

That dream was occurred somewhere around Sec 3. I'm amazed I remembered it... XD Actually... Not so amazed. ^^" I tend to remember most of my dreams. But hey, they're weird enough to be well-remembered. But I always remember them in bits and pieces and never the full picture.

Some leaves a really strong impression after I wake up, like this dream to some place called Lebanor... When I woke up, I had a strong urge to pack my bag and leave the house... And the sensation of flying/falling when I dreamt I was some ninja-like person being chased by cops somwhere in London. (That was the first dream I remembered really vividly, apparently I was supposed to steal a vase of some kind).

Others are make my heart sped and I wake up with an adrenaline rush. Like being chased by zombies, like those in "28 Weeks". Or playing hide-and-seek with zombies from some other apocolypse, and escaping by flying a helicopter only to crash it cause I can't fly it and to be saved by other survivors who happen to have savage, hungry werewolves for neighbours, with a healthy appetite for me for breakfast.

Or riding on MRT trains/railway trains that somehow got turned into some rollercoaster of doom, of which I remember seeing green, glowing ghosts like that in LOTR floating in the trains... (Except the dream occurred before LOTR was released)

And other really weird dreams that make absolutely no sense, but they still captivate me all the same. Like when I was being chased by... something, and I had difficulty moving (like my limbs were weighed down) and for some reason, I wanted to hide in school... But the gates were locked. Zzz...

Or when I was attacked by this really creepy/sexy lady with blonde hair and I had no idea to be freaked out or excited. =/

Or when I found some secret hide-away in my secondary school, and I was exploring those places with some people from Wushu. (Except in real life, I didn't really like these people...)

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And now that I look back, I realised all my dreams are quite dramatic. XDDD And adventurous. Hahaha!

Back to the present?

Zzz... After all these years, you'd think he'd learn his lesson, but no... -_-

I am still my dad's literal budget control.

It'd be nice one day if I actually can go grocery shopping with my dad WITHOUT him trying to put any and every edible thing into the trolley... Zzz.

Sigh. Tomorrow got SCHOOL. ARGH!!! I'm super sian by that fact. Never mind that we get to see those theories of ours put to use.

As of the moment, I'd trade all those theories and lessons we learnt for more time to sleep, play and be merry. XD

And on a HUGE plus side, my lab buddy won the title of SBS KING. WHOO!!!

Haha! I'm really happy for him. At least all those hours of practice dancing and catwalk and stuff paid off. WHOO!! ^-^

Now, as my thoughts scatter more and more, I'm gonna sleep... Zzz.

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Hell is over!!

I'm currently in purgatory awaiting my judgement. XD

But the main point is, IT'S OVER.

And I don't feel like going school tomorrow... =(

I wanna slack dammit. >=(

But I have to go, if I miss any fangji lesson, I sure die before my finals... Zzz...

And now, I also have to go back to school for internship every saturday... D8 Not that the internship won't be fun and interesting and all, but SCHOOL. ON SATURDAY. Ugh.

Choir was awesome as always. =^^= And now that I'm a confirmed member of the choir, I'm really happy. ^-^

Sigh... Today's just one crazy day. =X

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I totally should be studying chinese, but here am I, writing this because I'LL GO INSANE IF I SEE ANOTHER CHINESE WORD FOR THE NEXT FEW MINUTES!!!

AHHHHHH!!

My lecturer damn wonderful. He will only teach finish the last chapter by tomorrow, and the test is tomorrow... -_- So we're gonna based this test off whatever charades that we can remember from him. How wonderful.

Interestingly enough, I don't really feel the stress... My current stress is more of "WHY AM I NOT STRESSED FOR THE TEST!!!" kind of stress. Basically, I'm stressed that I'm not feeling stressed. Maybe I had already subconsciously given up... But I'd be damned if I went down without a fight, consciously at least.

And I generally understand most of what Kyoya rattles on about fangji... Which is amazing in itself because usually I don't. XD So I guess that contributes to the stress-less factor. ^^"

Zzz... Ah heck.

Back to the present?

Zzz. I haven't written in a while and I have so many things I want to say...

First of all, to Kyoya, the history of the church is full of darkness and chaos. The bible is still incomplete, the people in the church who call themselves Christian are flawed. But... But, I know that the love that God gives, God himself, is perfect and true.

But I have no idea how to show you or prove it to you. But, I hope one day, you will find your answer as to whether there is or isn't a god, and that you will find the meaning of your life.

And somehow, I can totally imagine WK and Kyoya debating (arguing, more like it) about the church, about God and about faith... And somehow, that imagination never cease to amuse me. XDDD or maybe I'm just sadistically happy to see both of them fighting with words.

And as far as I know, I can't imagine either side losing.

Next on my mind, HALL OPENING!!! OMG. Everyone was awesome that evening. And watching them makes me wish I could join back cheerleading again. Maybe I will... XD

But most of the guys may not join again... I dunno... I guess I'll see how...

Zzz. Have my mid-term test next week... I'm still only at chapter 1!!! The test is until chapter 7 and he will only finish teaching that on Monday. The test is on thursday... How am I to finish studying!!! The only way to finish studying is to finish at least one chapter everyday. Which is impossible.

There are at least 1-3 ji on average per sub-chapter. And there are about 3-4 of such sub-chapters per chapter...

And my chinese sucks... I still struggle with all those Chinese words. And I need to mumble to myself now it seems... XD cause I can't seem to get the songs right. I keep mixing them up with each other... They all use similar sets of herbs!!! Zzz!!!

And I miss home now... I miss my daily hugs from my brothers... =(((

And though i can't call it a substitute, but hanging out with Kyoya helps, I suppose. ^^" so thx Kyoya. For just being there.

And another crazy thing on my mind... My "lovely", "marvelous" cell leader wants to appoint me as RTC rep for my cell... And she wants an answer by tomorrow... Wonderful.

Personally, I don't want to take charge of the event. I think I have enough things to worry about without that extra burden... But I promised her I would think about it... Sigh...

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Today is CNY! Yay! And I received a few smses to wish me happy new year in CHINESE. -_-

Nothing wrong with it... EXCEPT I CAN'T READ IT!!! ARGH!!! ;_;

But other than that, I appreciate the messages. ^-^

Today's CNY started out on a relatively new note for me. Within the past year/month or so, especially with CNY coming up, I started learning about different people and their family problems and how they dread CNY, etc.

And it made me view CNY slightly differently.

My CNY has always been loud, slightly crazy and full of family bonding. I suppose, after listening to the stories of other families, I've learnt to appreciate this bond that I have with my family more. At least, I've learnt not to take it for granted.

Also, I remembered being slightly troubled that most of the people on my grandma's side of the family are not Christians. As for why I want them to be Christians... Eh... That one... You have to be a Christian to understand it... Otherwise, you'd just think it's being narrow-minded, imposing, irritating, etc.

But to my surprise, I never knew one of my aunts there is a Christian. And a rather strong one at that. ^^" Shows how observant I am... I suppose it's a pleasant surprise. And when I talked to her some more, I realised that she actually stays in HK! Hahaha! Looks like I have a place to stay if I don't wanna room with the guys. XP

Coincidence? Maybe. ~_^

And when I went over to visit my grandpa's side of the family, I SWEAR! The elders there bully me!! They say since I learning TCM, must give them free massage (top request!), and diagnose them, ask me what they should eat/drink to be healthier, etc. XD

Haha! I know they're just teasing though. And it's encouraging, I guess, to see them supporting me in their own way, by being interested in my course and all. XD

All is good this year for reunion! And I hope yours ended well too!

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