Today's chinese test is just... UGH. That's the most apt word to describe it. UGH! And the sad part is it's not as if the paper is difficult! Zzz! But I can't even recognise (actually I can recognise... But I can't read it. Difference?) some of the words. =.= I believe I will die for this paper... Actually, I always believe I will die for all my chinese papers... Zzz... But I still hope I can get... (if I'm actually lucky) 60 marks... That should hit a B, I think... If so, then I can still jia you for my final and score my beloved C! Or even better, B! Haha! =/ BMS(I) says I should aim higher... Well... If you have my chinese standard, you will be jumping for joy at a pass actually... B is a high aim... >.>

Anyway... IT'S OVER. THANK GOD!! Haha! After the exam, everyone became 气虚，神疲乏力. Hahaha! And of course, most of us didn't even bother to print our notes for BS201. =X

And now, I have to catch up on my backlogged work from last week. Since I literally spent my whole weekend rushing through 诊断... Sigh... What I wouldn't do for a translator beside me... Oh well...

Now... Sigh... I'm in hall. Suddenly, while I am happy I don't have to travel up and down, all of a sudden... I miss the ambience of my home... And somehow... It just feels wrong to go for cheer or to even eat in the canteen... XD It's like... I don't belong here... I don't know... Maybe it's just me... But while it's tiring... I guess I've gotten used to travelling from home already. XD The things the human body can get used to... Haha! Maybe next sem I'll just stay at home... Since my friend's only loaning me this for one sem only. ^^" Hm... Ah heck. I'll worry about it in Dec.

For now. Ciao!

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Tabidatsu Kimi E

Sakura mau mada sukoshi samui sora no shita
Kimi wa yuku chiisana kata ni
Yume ya kibou nosete
Ima tabidatsu kimi ni okuritai
Kyou kurai majime ni ittatte ii jan
(Ittatte ii jan)

Arittake no egao o hanataba ni
Kimi ni tsutae yo MESSEJI

~ chorus ~
Arigatou, issho ni waratte kurete
Arigatou, issho ni naite kurete

Daijoubu da yo shinpai nai yo
Shinjita michi dake massugu ni hashirun da yo

Kimi dake ni ucchi ake ta
Naishoubanashi toka
(There’s a secret for you…)
Tokidoki wa butsukari atte
Kenka moshi dakedo

Konna ni kokoro yuru seru hito wa
Mettani iru mon janai yo ne (janai yo ne)
Tsunakattara guchiru no mo ari de
Dekita itoki wa denwa shite

Daijoubu donna ni hanarete itemo
Daijoubu itsu datte mikata dakara

Kekkon shitemo
Obasan ni nattemo
Itsu made tattemo
Jiman no shinyuu da yo

Fuzake tafurishite afureru namida go makashita
Ugoki dasu mado no mukou
Te wo furu kimi no sugataga
Dandan chiisaku natteku

~ chorus ~
Arigatou, issho ni waratte kurete
Arigatou, issho ni naite kurete

Kawatte yuku toki no naka de
Kimi wa kawaranai deite

Sayonara koko kara
Hajimaru kara
Sayonara itsu datte
Mikata dakara

Daijobu da yo
Hitori ja nai yo
Kaete kuru basho wa itsu demo
Koko ni aru yo
Koko ni aru yo
Koko ni aru yo
Koko ni aru yo

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From Bleach. But it's a really meaningful song... Especially to me... Since I'll be going off to China in a couple of years... =(

I wonder will there be any fool who play this song for me when I leave...?

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Hm... Was listening to Jordin Sparks' "Battlefield"... And somehow... The phrase "Get your armour" got me... Cause... In the battle of love... Isn't the point of the battle is to walk on without all those armour...?

If you keep piling armour on yourself because you are so afraid of being attacked and hurt, then what's the whole point of the relationship? Isn't a relationship suppose to be about being open and honest to the other person? Isn't a relationship supposed to be about peeling away your guards and just being you around the other person? After all, if you keep yourself so guarded against everyone else, shouldn't the person you want to be with be treated differently than the average stranger?

Sadly... I do agree that love is a constant battlefield... And people keep retreating back to their baseline to grab armours without realising the solution to the end of the war is to walk onto that battlefield without any armours at all... Yes, you will be hurt, you will be attacked, you will even be beaten down and trod on.

But unless you take off that armour, all you be doing is hiding yourself and not being yourself around the other person... And should that happens, isn't it better to just end the whole relationship...? Feelings fade, but you also can choose to keep those feelings or let it go. And if the relationship isn't working out, it's for the best for both parties if everything came to an end before it literally self-destruct in their faces. And should that happen... Even friendship is near impossible... Because if it self-destruct, it will always hurt to even look at the other person. Like a wound that would keep re-opening...

Sure, everyone wants to believe in fairytale endings... But in reality, no such endings exist... If they do, it's a rather superficial one... Because no one is identical. Not in thought, not in personality. And that's why, it will take more than one lifetime to truly understand another person... But one can be open-minded and compromise with the other party... Especially if you feel he/she is worth it.

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Talking about compromising, I was reading about Sumiko Tan's article a few days ago about her marriage life. Compromise ain't compromise if you keep backing out of it. Sure, it will make one party feel uncomfortable, but the human body adapts, even if your stubborn mind refuse to. Give it time, and you can even live in the Arctic if you wish.

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From Inume's blog

OBITUARY FOR THE LATE MR. COMMON SENSE

Today we mourn the passing of a beloved old friend, Common Sense, who has been with us for many years. No one knows for sure how old he was, since his birth records were long ago lost in bureaucratic red tape.

He will be remembered as having cultivated such valuable lessons as: Knowing when to come in out of the rain; why the early bird gets the worm; Life isn't always fair; and Maybe it was my fault.

Common Sense lived by simple, sound financial policies (don't spend more than you can earn) and reliable strategies (adults, not children, are in charge). His health began to deteriorate rapidly when well-intentioned but overbearing regulations were set in place. Reports of a 6 year-old boy charged with sexual harassment for kissing a classmate; teens suspended from school for using mouthwash after lunch; and a teacher fired for reprimanding an unruly student, only worsened his condition.

Common Sense lost ground when parents attacked teachers for doing the job that they themselves had failed to do in disciplining their unruly children. It declined even further when schools were required to get Parental consent to administer Calpol, sun lotion or a band-aid to a student; but could not inform parents when a student became pregnant and wanted to have an abortion.

Common Sense lost the will to live as the Ten Commandments became contraband; churches became businesses; and criminals received better treatment than their victims.

Common Sense took a beating when you couldn't defend yourself from a burglar in your own home and the burglar could sue you for assault.

Common Sense finally gave up the will to live, after a woman failed to realize that a steaming cup of coffee was hot. She spilled a little in her lap, and was promptly awarded a huge settlement.

Common Sense was preceded in death by his parents, Truth and Trust; his wife, Discretion; his daughter, Responsibility; and his son, Reason.

He is survived by his 3 stepbrothers; I Know My Rights, Someone Else Is To Blame, and I'm A Victim. Not many attended his funeral because so few realized he was gone.

If you still remember him, pass this on. If not, join the majority and do nothing.

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Kimi wa my beautiful hangover
Hangover yeah

Kagayaku headlight nemuranai machi e ARE YOU READY?
Koko kara ga shoubu ASE-razu ni genkai made zenkai de ikou!
Nagareru RADIO chijimeru kyori wo OH OH OH
Yukisaki wa mada ienai yo
HONEY CLOSE YOUR EYES

We're gonna get down down down!
Gimme love love love!
Sagashi motometeta Lady
Dare ni motomerarenai MAKING LOVE kiga sumumate GO!

Kimi wa My Beautiful Hangover
Hangover yeah
Kimi wa my beautiful hangover hangover

It's me G.D (I know you love me)
Ma-Ma-Ma-Ma-Ma beautiful girl
1, 2, 3 to the 4-sho one like you
There ain't nobody can do them things you do
So true
I'm so excited delighted
I won't deny it nor fight it
Baby you got what I need
Got me jumpin' jumpin' off my feet

Baby there's no playin' delayin'
Always got me feelin' that healin'
Everyday I'm smilin' and wildin'
When I think about you
Think about you
Got me flyin' so high'n
And I won't stop bringin' and bringin' that (BANG)

B.I.G (BANG! ) T.O.P (BANG! )
Baby that's how it be

We're gonna get down down down!
Gimme love love love! Sagashi motometeta LADY
Dare no motomerarenai MAKING LOVE honoo no yo ni atsui

Kimi wa my beautiful hangover
Hangover yeah
Kimi wa my beautiful hangover hangover

You got my heart love game
Make me crazy baby
Kiss my lips kuruwa se 360°
Mou nara you ni naru shikanai

We're gonna get down down down
Gimme love love love! Sagashi motometeta Lady
Dare ni motomerarenai Making Love kiga sumumate GO!

Kimi wa my beautiful hangover
Hangover yeah
Kimi wa my beautiful hangover hangover

Beautiful my baby

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OMG. BIG BANG IS COMING SINGAPORE AND I CAN'T WATCH THEM!!! ARRRGGGHHH!!!

Taeyang~♥ You're my beautiful hangover!! Haha! But now, as I watch more of Big Bang, I think I'm starting to like GD too!! Whoo~!

I remember my friend once mentioned that the Big Bang members form the perfect dream for any girl. XD

SeungRi is like the perfect boyfriend/husband
GD is the romantic lover
TOP is the best one-night stand
Taeyang is like the best friend
Daesung is like a little/big brother

Haha! All the guys a girl will ever want inside one lovely boyband! XD

Ok. Enough of fan-girling. Back to chinese... ;_;

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Due to my current situation, this blog will be on HIATUS. Until my exams are over or until I can actually find my brain.

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