Hey YX. Don't worry. I won't cry. I'm not strong... But I'm not that weak either. U will never see my tears from a broken heart.

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From Inume's blog:

Your personality type: "Individualistic Doer"

Quiet and reserved, interested in how and why things work. Excellent skills with mechanical things. Risk-takers who they live for the moment. Usually interested in and talented at extreme sports. Uncomplicated in their desires. Loyal to their peers and to their internal value systems, but not overly concerned with respecting laws and rules if they get in the way of getting something done. Detached and analytical, they excel at finding solutions to practical problems.

Careers that could fit you include:

Police, detectives, forensic pathologists, computer programmers, system analysts, computer specialists, engineers, carpenters, mechanics, pilots, drivers, athletes, entrepreneurs, firefighters, paramedics, construction workers, dental hygienists, electrical engineers, farmers, military, probation officers, steelworkers, transportation operatives.

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Hm... I am interested but I am absolutely talentless at sports. And I suck at finding solutions to problems... That's one skill that needs lotsa work for me... XD And I'm not really detached. Ask my friends.. XP

Career: Hm... Police is cool. So is the military. >D

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Baka YX! I really miss you even though I just saw you this morning. Last night, I really wanted to stay, just to be near you, however inappropriate it may be. Sigh... The annoying part is that you know that I do like you. I really do. I just have no idea how to express it. How do I tell you I want to be near you, to hear your voice or feel your presence without appearing clingy, needy or stalkerish? >.>

Zzz... I really suck at interpersonal stuffs. I talk a lot but I'm not really eloquent when it comes to saying the right words. Personally, I don't mind doing sports with you (although I seriously suck at it), except for running. I don't expect you to like me back, but at least don't make me hope like that. I'm not that strong. Sigh. How do I show that I care? How do I shoe you that I like you? (Actually I'm not good at hiding my feelings, hence pretty much everyone else knows...)

Do you know everytime I receive an sms, my heart leaps in anticipation at the thought of it being you? You are the person I talk to the most (yes, sorry for being irritating at times), the person I think about the most; what you are doing, are you sleeping enough, are you too stressed, how you are in general... As much as I hate to admit that Ed is right, I do fantasize about us being together. But somehow, I don't want to hope, If I hope, I'll crash and burn. it's a lesson I've learnt a long time ago. Personally, I would rather you leave me alone so that I can kill this emotion of mine before I get hurt. I'm already defending you in front of my friends. That is how much I really like you. The only other person I would do something like that for is F.

Zzz... I just want to snuggle by your side. (I bet you'd make a nice cushion), I want to... just stay by your side. To watch you, laugh with (and at) you. Part of me wants to look after you, though I'm not sure how... I can listen if u want me to u know. Although I talk a lot, if u want to rant or anythingm I can listen. It's just a side I only show my family and F. I appear to be hopeless on my own, but in actual fact, I'm big enough to look after myself. It's just less lonely if I depended on someone. Sigh.

Anyhow. I gave you a piece of my heart. Whether it grows or dies, it's up to you. I made the first move. It's your turn.

P.S. My language deteriorates when I'm ranting it seems... XD

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Ket: OMG. I HAVE CHINESE TEST IN 2 DAYS' TIME!!!
Kai: GO STUDY!!
Ket: >.> ... U sound like YX.
Kai: Still hung up on him?
Ket: =.= duh...
Kuro: Hehe... Is there a reason why the tagboard never got changed?? ~_^
Ket: Yeah. So ppl won't comment. If they did, I won't see it. So there!
Alexi: =^^= So... Whatcha gonna do 'bout YX?
Ket: First of all... Kill my bloody captain. *blushing*
Alexi: Oolala!! What she say?? *nudge nudge*
Ket: !!! Nothing of THAT sort!! *mumbles* justthatYXisaniceguyanddatableandsheapproves...
Kiba: WOOHOO!!! Bring out the confetti!! Looks like our little baby girl's all grown up!!
Ket: HEY!!! ... By the way... I was talking about chinese... WHEN DID THE TOPIC CHANGE TO HIM!?!??!
Kai: *smirk* You started it!
Ket: Did not!
Kai: Did to. Go read above.
Ket: =.= ...

Mia: *changing topic* So how far have you studied? *smiling innocently*
Ket: >.> eh... not enough??
Kuro: She means only 2 out of 6 passages!
Ket: =P Meanie. I'm studying the 3rd!!
Mia: And your test is...
Ket: =.= Wed... MIA!! ARE YOU ON MY SIDE OR THEIRS!!!?!?!?!
Mia: Theirs!
Tala: *grinning*
Ket: =.= Aw damn.
Bryan: *smirking* Do you want us to force you to study like YX does?? *wink wink*
Ket: !!! DAMN!! YOU GUYS PLAY DIRTY!!!
Melody: All fair in love and war dear!
Ket: NOT YOU TOO!!!
Taylor: One does to admit, tormenting you is quite an amusing hobby. *pokes Ket* (Ket: YELP!!) And it doesn't really get boring.
Kruise: Oh yes... YX does poke you quite often too doesn't he?
Ket: WHAT'S WITH YOU PEOPLE?!?!?!?
Alexi: Nothing love. Absolutely nothing. Just know that we are the voices in your head after all... And You tend to drift often to certain topics... *wink wink nudge nudge*
Ket: OMG. I'VE CREATED A MONSTER!
Alexi: Nope. You've created a perfectly awe-inspiring being that more shoots down all points of denial.
Ket: ==" I don't even know if he likes me!!
Mia: Ket dear. It's YOU who likes him, not the other way round. Sadly, we don't go round peeking into others' brains for info for your sake.
Ket: T-T Can't you peek into HIS? Not even for a while?!?!?!
Kai: Of course not.. We'll lose all dramatic effects of your anguish.
Ket: You're all sadists...
All: We learn from you of course.
Ket: T-T Mommy...
Tala: *grinning evilly* Not here.

Kruise: *looking at the above convo* Oh wow... Looks like YX seems to dominate the conversation... Even though you started out with chinese...
Ket: =.= Sorry. I'm not good at hiding my own feelings.
Kai: Well... The obvious answer is to be friends with him first. After all, who the hell would want to go out with a total stranger?
Ket: Eh... ^^"
Kai: Excluding you.
Ket: =.= So whatdaya want me to do?
Kuro: Well... You could wait it out...
Bryan: Then again... Patience is never one of your virtues... *smirks*
Mia: But if you rush it, you might lose it...
Alexi: Saa.. Looks like it's unrequited love for now!
Ket: AAARRRGGGHHH!!! *stressed!!!*

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