Irrashaimasei~! My Never-Ending Story

Rollercoaster Ride

Saturday, April 15, 2006 9:50 pm

Yo! Sorry! Haven't posted in a long long LONG time... Haha... ^^" So many things have happened... And I'm not really the type to write it all down... Let's start from since I last posted......

School has started... (A long time ago...) My dad came back from his business trip to China and bought a collection of mini weapons consisting of staffs, spears and mid-ranged sort of weapons... My mom came back as well and we watched my school musical: Brothers... It was very nice... But my friend Francine got into an arguement with another one of my friend, Hannah... And it was all over a stupid guy... *bashes head on the wall* and I'm the one who is supposed to be immature... That was at the end of March... (Not much things happening in my life... T-T)

Then starts April... I had motivation camp on the first week of April... It was super hilarious... The speaker, Mr Ramesh, is one really cool motivator... I had lots of fun! (If only girls never have this curse called "periods", it would be better... -_-") I got really motivated during the camp... So motivated... I had to see the doctor... Ended up having fever, sore throat, running nose, etc... My mom bursted into laughter when she found out... (My parents are both overseas... Again...)

Then on Wednesday, I had Speech Day... So the school had a half day! (Yippee!) It would be great... If i didn't have to sit for 2 fricking tests on that day... (I offically declare: All papers known as TESTS and EXAMS are to be burnt in Hell!!!) Thursday was Sports Day... We had a "wonderful" time cheering... In the rain... Without an umbrella... Then I had dinner with my class and we watched a horror movie: Black Night in the middle of the night... I had such an amazing time! *sarcastic* ... I have also gone crazy about a manga called Black Cat. It is super cool!!! Train is by far the most awesome gunsman I ever known! He's quite cute too! =^^= Oh yeah... Today, I have wushu... It's the last practice before the competition... Which is on Monday... I getting damn stressed over this stupid crap! First there's my friends, then there's wushu, what next?! The mid-year exams?! ... I have no idea why Francine seems so upset with me... (I'm denser than diamond...) I only hope that I can clear things up between her and her boyfriend... Maybe then, I can see her smile with her eyes once more... ^-^

On a more personal note... My parents are planning a divorce... Heh... I hardly ever see them... Not that it will make much of a difference in my life... But... I may not see my mom anymore... T-T Damn... I can help people out... But I just can't seem to help myself... Don't want my brothers to know... They'll be shattered... (Or at least... I think they will be... They don't seem to care anymore...) *sigh* My life is sooooooooooooo screwed up... Why?! Of all times... Must it be on the oh-so-wonderful year of O'levels?!... I hope Crystal won't find out either... She has enough on her hands as it is... I don't want to add another burden on her... But I want to apologise to her... Cause I don't think I can be that kid who needs her support anymore...

I also signed up her backup singing for my youth concert Passion '06... Tomorrow is my trial... Hopefully I can make it... You know... I'm not really a strong Christian... But at times like these... I really need God to be there for me... To hear my heart out... To understand the unspoken words of my soul... To be truthful, I'm scared... I don't know what to do anymore... *sigh* It makes life easier to know for a fact that my emotions are turned off like a light... So I can deal with the emotional stress... (At least... I think I can...) I'm not sure of anything anymore... I'm lost... Tase kete...

By the way... For anyone who wants to try playing DDR on the computer... Go to http://www.stepmania.com/. It's really nice... And go to http://www.bemanistyle.com/ for more songs to download... Enjoy! ^-^

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