Ok. Drama aside, I had to do something else or I'll go crazy.

Ok. First of all, on Monday, I met Mr. Quirky. XD He's still as awkward as ever. XD Eh... Let's just say that his EQ is about that of JVF and Kyoya's "favourite" foreigner. But he's trying. XD

And for him, I've seen him being bullied to tears, I've seen him verbally beaten down, I've seen the cruel way people treat him just because he's a little different. And seeing him now, being a somewhat businessman, and learning how to talk to people, somehow I'm glad. I'm really glad he's alright now. Haha!

It'll be a while before he would really be accepted by the world around him. But he's on his way there. =)

And I've met my roomies and had dinner with them and discussed stuff about China with them. XD And passed my thesis physically to the prof, since he has difficulty receiving it.

AND I MET KYOYA. WHOO! Haha! Kyoya tends to make me forget the world and my issues. XD Don't get me wrong. Those issues don't disappear, but Kyoya's presence just somehow gives me some respite from it all. ^^"

And somehow, I'm scared. I'm scared that during that 2 damn years in Beijing, I'd fall for Kyoya and lose him. I'm actually more afraid of the losing Kyoya part than the falling part... =/ It's getting hard, you know...

Imagine the guy/girl of your dreams is your friend. A very good friend. How long do you think you can keep that lie, that you can be just friends and nothing more? Haha. Who am I kidding? Hell. If it comes down to it, I rather kill my heart than lose Kyoya. It's not worth it. Not to me.

Actually, I rather kill Cross. -_- He's being all attention-seeking and FREAKING ANNOYING again. But... Most likely, I won't ever see him again. So... I'll just "enjoy" this as much as I can. And hopefully, I can learn to let go when I go China.

Back to the present?