I dunno if I'm annoying the living daylights out of YX and that he is irritated with me... Or if he's just bored of toying around with me already... But as far as I know... With the way he's been treating me and stuff... It's easier to let him go...

I guess... Mentally, I always knew I had to let him go... But somehow, am not emotionally ready to do so yet... But now... I guess it's easier... Cause somehow... It feels hopeless to even feel any sort of hope regarding him anymore... And now... Considering the fact he doesn't seem interested in talking to me, and that I haven't seen him since... exams started. Well... It's easier... Though I won't know what happens when I see him again. Zzz... The heart is such a fickle thing.

On the other hand... Now that I'm comtemplating YX and my relationship (or whatever you want to call it), I realise that I actually take on the male role in the relationship... And YX takes on the female role... XD Cause when I discuss it with my brothers, it seems that the girls are the ones that usually play some form of mind games or are the ones to keep the guys guessing and stuff... And that is kinda what YX does to me... XDDD On one hand, you can say it's mean of him to do so... On the other hand, it allows me to talk more about relationships with my brothers... Seeing as yes, I do understand what they are going through if they like a girl and have no idea how to tell the girl so.

And I think there's a girl that like my dearest lil' bro!! 8DDD About time too. Those two angels deserve to have someone to keep them company and to share their heart... Someone NOT family, that is. XD It's so interesting to note that both my brothers wish that they can find girls that are like me, all gutsy and crazy, and I have yet to find a single boyfriend for 20 years. =/ Talk about the ironies of life. The perfect guys I would love to have are the ones I cannot have.

I guess my brothers would like someone like me, cause they are able to be themselves around me... Hm... I seem to have that sort of effect on people... But... Being yourself means taking off certain masks that would otherwise be your little safety bubble. And I guess... Depending on the person... They would put up another mask, or take it down altogether... Or just treat me as an enemy and hope I burn in Hell... XD

Anyway, Friday I'm going to the ZOO!!! WOOH!!! I doesn't seem that keen... But too bad! F and I both want to go... So too bad!! Whee!! Can't wait!! It's gonna be one hell long day... But to spend it with my friends. ~_^ It's well worth the exhaustion. =^^=

Hm... I wonder... If I can keep a cat??? But if I stay hall (not that I think I can...), the poor cat got no one to look after it... But if I don't... Within 2 years... I'll be in China... Then what happens to the cat???

Or maybe a bird... Like a budgie or a small parrot of some sorts... But... I still don't know if I can look after it... Zzz!! DAMN SCH!!! If only you let me study from home... Then again... I'd probably WON'T study... XDDD

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