Talk about nightmares... I think I have yet to convince my subconscious that I DO NOT want to miss YX..

Last night, I was quite tired... And I literally just plopped myself down on the bed and I was out like a light. And I had one of the oddest dream ever.

In the dream, YX came over to my house for some reason which I forgot... I remembered it has something to do with my brother's room... I was talking to him about said reason, and I think he was staying for the night, cause somehow, a mattress magically appeared in my room. So I told him somewhere along the lines of "You can sleep on the mattress, or on the bed." (By the way, my bed is queen-sized, and is definitely big enough to fit two people.) And he dumped his bag on the bed. Then we went to my brother's room to accomplish whatever reason he was here for... And then... I woke up... Cause my mom was calling my maid from 3 storeys up... Zzz... That's the first time I actually had a dream about YX. Zzz...

It seems while my conscious mind has picked up on the fact that I want to let him go, my subconscious mind is still quite hung up over him... Zzz!!! Mind over matter. Mind over matter. NOT WORKING.

Zzz... My mom says I'm head over heels with that idiot... I think she's right... But then again... Letting go is always the hardest part... Especially someone whom you consider a friend... But sometimes... I have no choice but to do so... After all, holding on when the other party doesn't quite care is a very painful ordeal...

Part of me, the subconscious part, is very excited and looking forward to the day we go to the Universal Studios... Maybe then I can see YX again... XD Sigh... I'm too hopeful for my own good... Maybe I shouldn't have bothered in the first place... But if I didn't bother, I wouldn't grow... Sigh... Life's dilemmas.. Always annoying but you can't do without them...

Back to the present?