Irrashaimasei~! My Never-Ending Story

Tell Me Goodbye

Tuesday, May 18, 2010 4:35 pm

Letting you go...(here's somebody...)
Letting you go...(here's somebody...)
Yo I got this, yeah
still thinking about this thing alot
you got me shaken up
(Please tell me there's a way)
And it got my head just spinnin' round round round round
(Please tell me there's a way)
Don't wanna take a fall
It's best to break it up
It's gonna be better for you, move on
(Please tell me there's a way)
Uh huh we break it break it
Or thought we make it make it
And now we cover it up

Girl I swear kimi no koto wo ichibyou demo
kanashimasenai yakusoku
mamoru tame ni wa mo
Mou koreshika erabu michi wa nai kara

Baby aimini coopera bun dake kizutsuketeshimau
and I've got nothing, nothing to say

Tell me goodbye, tell me goodbye
dakishimeta te wo
Tell me goodbye, tell me goodbye
hanasou
boku wo wasureru koto ni jiyuu ni naru nara Baby
Tell me goodbye, tell me goodbye

girl you know kimi ga egao wo
nakumini coopereku hodo boku wa jibun wo semeru yo
nego kotoba mo hikari sae mo
nanimokamo miushinau

Baby kondo kuchibiru ga hanareta shunkan
I'll never find better, better than you

Tell me goodbye, tell me goodbye
dakishimeta te wo
Tell me goodbye, tell me goodbye
hanasou
soba ni iru koto dake ga yasashisa janai to Baby
Tell me goodbye, tell me goodbye

Yo and it's so, so
Sad it just ain't happening
Wish it could be better
Sorry to scrapping
But I just can't let ya
To be less than happy
I said look at me
I couldn't live with myself seeing you lacking
The things you deserve
Baby you was superb
Best believe that it hurts
That bleeds this word
I feel the aching through my body
it just takes a bigger part of me
to be let you go
I wish that weren't so

kimi no koe setsunaku fade away...away-ay-ay-ay
kaze ni kakikesareteyuku stay...stay-ay-ay-ay

kore ijou wa I can't take it, sono namida don't cry for me
kimi no tame never look back again

Tell me goodbye, tell me goodbye
dakishimeta te wo
Tell me goodbye, tell me goodbye
hanasou
soba ni iru koto dake ga yasashisa janai to Baby
Tell me goodbye, tell me goodbye
Tell me goodbye

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Sigh... Was on FB, and one of the ACES people who went to Japan uploaded some photos. YX was in some of those photos... And when I saw them... I guess it just hit me how much I actually miss him. Distracting myself helped. At least I can forget about him for those few minutes or hours. But now... When I see his picture... I guess... It reminds me... Of how much I actually like him... Damn... I haven't missed anyone this much since I went JC and never saw F for 2 years... Ah heck. My emotions are out of whack. Please stand by for repair.

I give up on my dad. I know he's going through a tough time. But dude! Seriously! You woke me up at 7.55 am!! I FRICKING CHECKED THE TIME!!! So wonderful that you don't even believe your own daughter's words. And you expect strangers to trust you. Right. Ah hell. Fine. Disown me if you want. Don't believe me if you want. I give up. I should have expected this. After all, if you take your anger out on us all the time, why should I expect your stress or sorrow to be any different? I just keep hoping you would learn how badly you affect us. But no, you never do. You always say you will, but you never do. If I can't even have a decent conversation with you without you jumping at my throat and vice versa, then I won't say a word anymore. For the sake of peace in the family, I won't.

I want to leave. Leave this stupid place you stay. Haha. And you wonder what the hell happened to all the confidence I had when I was a child... Open your fricking eyes! You happened.

I says I shouldn't let it get to me. I'm trying not to. But you are my F***ing FATHER!! How can I not be affected? How can I not care? Zzz. Can't wait to go school again. At least then, I'm away from you. Sigh... I think... For my sanity's sake... I really shouldn't care anymore. At least then, my own father can't hurt me anymore. God... What the hell should I do???

Zzz... I hope I can still smile that silly smile of mine by the time I go back to school... Haha! Should be able to. BMS(I) can make anyone laugh. XD Sigh... Looks like I need to be stronger. Strong enough to take my dad's words, and not feel hurt anymore. Strong enough to stand on my own two feet if I were to be kicked out. I know I can do this. But... It will break my heart... Ah heck. It's already broken. Why bother fixing it, if that man is going to break it all over again? I'm not going to care. I don't want to care anymore.

P.S. YX looks fricking HOT in black. Don't ask why. I think I'm biased. =^^=

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