Today's a really busy day.

First we went to church. 8D Haven't been to church last week, thanks to my wonderful toe. Then we went to watch Iron Man 2. ^-^ I watched Ip Man 2 yesterday. OMG!!! IP MAN 2 OWNS~~~!! If you want to compare, Ip Man 2 is the one that takes me on an emotional rollercoaster, going high with the people, anxious with the fights, and grinning like an idiot after the fight, especially at the end. XD Iron Man 2 was nice too. But somehow, Ip Man 2 leaves a stronger, more lasting impact compared to Iron Man 2. Maybe's because I'm biased cause I learnt wushu before. ^^" Haha!

It seems like I'm pretty much free from DnD stuffs due to my toe... I can't travel back and forth from school. Heck, even staying on my feet for about an hour makes my foot ache. Stupid toe. Why did you have to break when the car ran over you? Anyway, I can walk. Just not too much. Don't wanna damage my toe permanently. Zzz. That being said. I'm so gonna contradict myself later on.

After church, I went home to rest. And some of my dear cell members came to visit me. =^^= Hm... My main problem with my cell is that I dunno how to connect with them... I have no idea how to talk to them... >.< Other than church and topics on Christianity, I have NOTHING to say to them... And sometimes, they can express words better than me... I'm quite lousy with words... Sigh... They are dear and all... But being with them only makes me realise how different I am from the others. And sometimes it's nice to stand out, especially if the people you hang out with are a rather cheery bunch... But... Sometimes... You just wish to blend in, only to realise that you are just too different.

Anyway, now having dinner with my extended family. As usual, Dad over-ordered the food, Sam and Grandma are kinda drunk (why am I NOT surprised...?), my little cousin is being annoying, etc. Zzz. Don't get me wrong. I love my family. I just tend to "hermit" myself in my room whenever they appear. XD Don't ask why.

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Yesterday, I and F came over. Yay! And I helped re-bandage my toe. Apparently, my bandaging skills sucks like hell. XD Then we talked about absolutely nothing in particular, discuss the fighting styles in Ip Man 2, etc. Then we had a lightstick party, where we just crack the lightsticks in my room and play around, doing silly/perverted/dumb stuffs. Didn't want them to leave, but I know they can't stay either... >.< Maybe I really should work on my possessive problem... XD

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I realised something about YX. He's not really sensitive... As in, he doesn't really care how his actions affect others. I guess I can understand why... After all, I was just like that too before Uni. It's just that the world is so full of facades that to keep caring when they themselves act as if they don't care is not just annoying, it's also very tiring. But after a while... I realise they do care... They just afraid of showing it. After all the society already has all sorts of labels prepared for them if they do. Soft, pussy, weak, petty, etc. People don't forge masks just because they like it. They forge masks to hide all their imperfections, their weaknesses, and the darkness within them.

Anyway, I guess it's due to this insensitivity which is the reason why I calls YX an ass****. To me, he's just an idiot. ... An idiot I have a soft spot for. Hm... Part of me wonders... How many times have he been hurt himself...? How many times have he been broken... to the point where he stops caring altogether...? To the point where he feels there's nothing much that can break him anymore, cause he sealed out the world...?

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Sigh... Just when I didn't want to walk around too much, BMS(N) found me a job opening. It's quite a decent job actually. At the MOM, doing immigration admin stuffs, and being paid well for it. XP It's also near the MRT, so I can walk there, no problem. He ask me to try it out tmr first... Since there is an opening... And BMS(E) and him are both there. Sigh... Prayers, prayers... i need prayers... I need direction. I need God. I NEED SHOES.

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