Tell the World that~
Sunday, March 21, 2010 9:45 pm
Tell the world that Jesus lives
Tell the world that, tell the world that
Tell the world that he died for them
Tell the world that he lives again
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These few days have been real hectic. And I'm supposed to be studying. But I wanted to blog this before I forget.
The last day of prayer meeting is really crazily fun. I want to tell the world that Jesus lives~~ Haha! I have so much to study. I HAVE A TEST ON WEDNESDAY AND I HAVEN'T FINISH STUDYING!!! But I do not regret what I have done. Call it silly or blind faith or whatsoever, but being in church, singing my heart out for God, even though my heart is dry and my spirit is empty, is the most energizing feeling I will ever have. I'm such an idiot. I know I can feel God's love if I reach up hard enough. I can feel His strength when I sing outloud for Him. I can feel His security when I pray. (To the point that I can actually fall asleep.)
So why am I still looking for these in this dying world???
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I'm scared I won't do well for this test... I'm a procrasinating perfectionist and you will never find anyone more contradictory than me. Anyway... I'm... Just at a loss now, actually. I don't know what to do anymore... If I continue like this, I will burn out. For sure. But... I dunno... I really dunno anymore.
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I visited YX during the Cheer Competition on Sat in Expo. F and I accompanied me there. ^-^ Together with my beloved bro. I doesn't like YX. =.= I dunno. I does have a sixth sense for such things. And he warned me that continuing to like YX will only get me hurt in the end. And F wants to protect me, and if I doesn't help... F will "trash" him silly. XD I think... For the longest of time... I know. I know liking him will get me nowhere. And I will get hurt. So far... I treated YX like a friend... Except my boundaries for friends are larger than what most people allow... Like E, for example. To me, he is really only like a big brother. I do not like him that way. But people say that the way I treat him and vice versa is like boyfriend/girlfriend. Zzz. If that's the case, the way I treat my brothers would be considered incestuous. =.=
I do not follow conventional guidelines. Do not group me with you. I am myself. If you idiots can't accept that, GET LOST.
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These few days have been real tiring for me though. I think I average more sleep on my weekdays than on my weekends. >.< Because we're moving house, we have a lot of things to settle, and everything is just so hectic, I can't even rest when I want to. My home doesn't feel like home anymore... D8 Can't wait till we move. Maybe things will be better then. Either that, or I will just break-down, because I cannot take this kind of stress. Study stress I can still learn to cope. But this stress... I can't take. I'm not strong at all, no matter what people say. I think... God is the only one who can truly see how weak I am, as well as how strong I can be. But right now... I don't feel strong at all...
I need you Lord Jesus
To come to my rescue
HelpHelpHelpHelpHelpHelpHelpHelpHelpHelpHelpHelpHelpHelpHelpHelpI don't know what to feel
I don't know what to do
I don't know anything anymore
Tell me God,
What should I do?
What should I feel?
Tell me... Before I break completely...
I'm trying to pull myself together... But pieces keeps breaking off.
I won't be able to hold on for long.
Help.
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