Irrashaimasei~! My Never-Ending Story

What am I?

I am a head-turner.
I am angelic. I am innocent.
I am loud. I am simple.
I am possessive. I am obsessive.
I am different. I am special.
I am soft-hearted. I am a giver.

You shall be so fascinated
that you will wake up the next morning
and wonder if you have met God the night before.

Yes, you have.

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LOSE YOURSELF
in this wild mix of colours.

Speech Bubbles

Talk to me
I don't bite. Hard. ~_^

COS THAT'S THE ONLY WAY
that you will find laughter.

DANCE LIKE AN ELEPHANT
squeal like a pig.

All I Want

Alternate Realities.

My own house.

My own car.

More jigsaw puzzles to fix.

Fall in love.

Rule the World.

Burn School DOWN.

JUMP, SCREAM, WAVE
YOUR HANDS AROUND
as if you've just lost your mind.

Touch the Sky!

COS WE'RE GONNA
PAINT THE TOWN RED
and we're gonna do it tonight.

Quoting Anonymous

SO STOP YOUR COMPLAINTS
and join the chaos.

Who am I?

I am a student from NTU.
I am from Singapore.
I am 22.
I am a Gemini.
I am loved.
I am a Child of God.

I am Ketsurui.

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THERE WILL NEVER BE
another dimension like this.

Fasting

Wednesday, March 10, 2010 10:12 pm

Hm... I just realised what a tough decision it is to fast for 21 days... Sure... a week, can... I'm not that addicted. I don't need it... But when temptation hits you hard in the face... Can you truly deny that you want it badly?

I am only human. I want to play, to de-stress... To do things I didn't get a chance to do because I was too blind to everything but studying...

Zzz... Those who can juggle play and studies are really awesome... I realised.

I want him. I realised that long ago. But admitting it has never been easy. I'm just real glad he doesn't read my blog. I want to be near him, to be by his side... Damn... I'm getting obsessed... Dear God, I wonder, are You this crazy over me as well?

Inume was right. We'll always call on God whenever we want something. Once in a while, we remember to say thanks. Once in a while, we remember to say hi. But most of the time, we say nothing at all.

Zzz... My thoughts are filled with him and they are not disappearing. ZZZ!!! My mind is really one-tracked. I wish to spend more time with him. But I can't. He's human too. He needs space. Blah blah blah. (You have no idea how often i repeat this to myself. Self-therapy doesn't work.) I am SUCH A FOOL!!! (AND I AM RANTING)

Dear God. When have I been such a blubbering lovesick idiot...? ... I AM NOT IN LOVE! I am just... tired of feeling.

At the moment, my life feels like some roller coaster ride. The part just before the carriage plummets to the ground and crash and burn. It's an agonizing wait. I'm just waiting for everything to just come crashing down like some tidal wave. It's like I can see it coming... But it ain't falling yet. And I'm just standing there, mouth open like an idiot, waiting for it to slam down on me.

... Or maybe, being alone in a room with no one around but the insects and the forest does things to your brain...

I want to disappear into the night sky...

Tell me... Will you miss me when I'm gone?

Back to the present?

LIVE IT UP
Suck it up dude.

JUST LOSE YOURSELF
to the beat, yeah yeah yeah.