Talked to Cross yesterday. Haha! He said that there are some people that are meant to be "kiddy" and I'm one of them. XD
I have no idea what to think about that. There are perks of being child-like, I suppose... Though Cross said I'm not using what I have to its fullest ability.
Haha! Long story short, there are at least two things I must learn. One, is the ability to read people. Well... I can read them... Just not as well nor as fast as Kyoya. But Kyoya is different. He can hide himself behind various masks.
For me, my emotions are always on full display for everyone to read. Ah... Cross said it's useless to try to control it, rather, I should just use myself as bait to expose others. The idea is, if others can read me that easily, I should learn to read them back and expose them if they're being jackasses to me. Or so he said.
=P I'm still learning to read people though. I dunno... It's not that easy to read people... And I keep having this paranoia that I'm over-reading people sometimes. So yeah... I'm still trying though. But it's still... Training-in-progress, I suppose.
And I should learn self-control... ^^" This one is pretty much self-explanatory.
Sigh. And I'm going back hall tonight... My brothers... Will be fine by themselves. I will trust that God will be looking after them. And there is nowhere safer than under His wings.
Meanwhile... I realise there's only about 3 weeks left till the finals... I swear, Time Turners should be invented for times like these... Zzz. Chinese... should be alright this time... The teacher goes really slow... So it's not that hard to catch up with her. Exam-wise, the paper is not that tough... Though if they give me another "what's your opinion about the subject" question, I'll murder the paper...
It's Patho I'm a little worried about... The only part I can still remember from Patho is the Genetic Basis. (It's the easiest to remember). That being said, I have a feeling the questions on Genetic Basis will be a case study. Otherwise, it's kinda stupid to test on the symptoms about Genetics stuff. That... Would be too easy.
The systemic parts are a bitch to read. Zzz! I tend to get lost along the way. Lost, as in, I can't remember what I've read... Zzz.
Sigh... A part of me don't want this semester to end... I'm scared of a lot of stupid things... Scared that I won't do as well as I want to do for FYP. Scared of going to Beijing. Scared because I don't know what's going to happen there.
Basically, I'm scared of the future. Because I can't see it.
Yeah. I know I'm being stupid again. I'll just shut up now... ^^"