Yay! Happy New Year all!
I spent the welcoming of the new year in a really crazy party. Not quite my taste though... I mean, family is great and all, but I wish I could have celebrated it with my friends. It would have been more fun for me. =P
Still, the people there were nice. We won some huge all-round sound system. XD Actually, we walked out of the restaurant/bar because it was about 1am and we thought we didn't win anything from the lucky draw so we saw no point in staying.
Then as my dad drove us off, my mom's friend called to exclaim that we won second prize and to come and claim our reward. So yeah.
Personally, I do wonder if I'm bothering him. (No brainer to who HIM is.) Kyoya would probably say he won't mind it, but I really hate the feeling of being a bother to someone.
That's why eventually I will stop asking for help from people... Zzz... And even though I say I'll not be paiseh and keep pestering the Kyoya for help for chinese, most likely, by Feb, I'd stop asking... For that exact reason of not wanting to be a bother to people. Zzz...
And... Well... I don't know Sexy that well to be able to decipher his feelings over smses. That's why even though I know he likes me, I am still in the "let's see how it plays out" mode. Haha! I suppose I'm too cautious when it comes to people. =/
For me, in any kind of relationship, friendship or BGR, I need to know the other party. Or else, it'd probably end up like A... The more I know him, the more I want to run in the other direction.
Or like my cell leader. Someone whom I thought knew and understood me. But in reality, they are only words.
So I guess... Even though I know I like him, but... For the life of me, I can't imagine myself with him... Or without him, for that matter. So... yeah... I have a feeling that being with him is a lot like being with Yuki. The kind where you love that person's company, but at times, you can't decide to love them or kill them.
There's a reason why I almost never SMS Yuki. I swear, I'd probably kill her the next time I see her if I do. And Cross wonders why I always talk to her through him... Even though he's a complete asshole, he's still easier to talk to online/via SMS than Yuki.
Oh well... It's the new year. =P There are lots of possibilities for this year. I just hope things turn out well.