9/8
Today was a Fairytale
I'm in HK! And I went out with Kyoya and some of my other classmates. But... I'm not as close to the other classmates as Kyoya. So... I dunno... Unlike Aus, I felt really alone when I was out with them... It's just me I guess... I just really felt as if I didn't belong.
Like I could go off on my own and it probably would have made no difference. It's like being back in primary school days. Really.
But I didn't want to suggest leaving. After all, Kyoya was having lots of fun with them, and their itinerary is really fun, and it would be too dangerous for me to go off on my own.
Sigh. I really have no idea how to talk to them! I mean... They're nice and all, but it just felt weird being with them... So yeah... I felt really out of place there.
Heck, even if Ivan were there, it would have been better than just them... X(
Ah hell... I'm just being a burden, as usual. I'll just deal with it, just like I always do.
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Rest of the trip (because I was too tired to record down everyday)
In the end, I travelled most of HK with Fluffy, Sweetie, Cheers and Little Miss Silly. (The nicknames sound funny, but somehow it suits them all. XD)
Although I much prefer Kyoya's group's itinerary, but Fluffy, Sweetie and Cheers' company made up for it. LMS is more for comic relief. XD Though it's sort of obvious that the group thinks of her as a 5-year-old instead of her actual age.
Btw, Cheers' nickname came about thanks to her fortune in her fortune cookie. XD
Anyway, the group is was in did mostly shopping, which is pointless to me. After all, I have everything I need. Why should I want more? Anyway, I mostly bought food back home for my family. Though I didn't buy much, cause my family don't really like snacks.
We did mostly silly things too, like singing National Day songs in the middle of the ferry terminal from Macau to HK... XD I laughed like crazy when I'm with them. And Fluffy is really easy to talk to, and her comments are also very interesting and funny. In a sense, she makes as interesting a companion as Kyoya. Haha!
The only puzzling part of the whole trip was my thoughts for A. Yes, apparently he's back in my life, and I have no idea what his agenda is... Sigh... Doesn't help that he's now available and MY STUPID BRAIN WON'T SHUT UP ABOUT HIM.
Zzz. I have decided to place him in the "Pending" category, so SHUT UP ALREADY.
And to you, A, I have no idea what are you doing back in my life. Whether you want to be just friends, or something more, or whatever, state your intentions clear. Cause I hate games. And I'm tired of trying to second-guess what you are trying to do.
You disappeared for over a semester. Then you decide to reappear again. Zzz. Make up your mind. Do you want to stay in my life or get out? Sigh.