Yes. I know I'm being taken for a fool. And no, I'm not being childish. I'm being naive. There's a difference. Learn it.

I... just want to believe in the best of others at times. Is it wrong to believe in whatever good that's left in humanity? Contrary to popular beliefs, not all humans are reincarnations of the devil. =.= Sigh... I just want to help. That's all. Zzz. Not my fault that people like to take advantage of me. I knew I should have said no. But if I didn't agree, my grandparents will be left to figure things out themselves. My grandpa just gone through one hell of a surgery and is looking like a skeleton now.

There is no way on Earth am I letting him drive. He's also having other problems as well, and since stubbornness is an apparent genetic trait in our family, he refuses to see the doctor, saying everything is all minor problems. ARGH! How can I not care? You see your grandparent lying sick and looking as if he went through hell and back on the hospital bed and tell me you can just walk out and not care! Even if it's only simple, small things, like driving them around... Since all the bull-headed, idiotic, MALE members of our family are too much of an asshole to even care, what can I do but look after them myself? Or what? Watch them struggle when you know you can help them?

Zzz. So yeah. I'm naive in the sense I actually thought, being their son and all, he would actually leave behind a FULLY FUNCTIONAL car for use, but apparently, even that is too much to ask.

As for Ivan, I know he's mad at me. For breaking my word, mainly. Because he made me promise not to tell F. So that one, I acknowledge that I was in the wrong. Hell, I'm already beating myself over it. I don't care what you think. All friendships, doesn't matter if said friend is one son of a bitch, are important to me. And losing his hurts. I don't need you to rub any more salt in my wound. Thank you very much.

Zzz. Ah hell. I have enough on my plate as it is without being criticized by you as well.

Back to the present?