Today... I talked to both of them... Zzz... Since Ivan still refuses to talk to F about it, I talked to F instead. Sure, I inferred a little, but I also told her which parts was said by Ivan.

Zzz... Truth hurts. I know. And now, both Ivan and F are angry. I understand why F is angry. But why Ivan? I have no idea.

Anyway, I understand where F is coming from... After all, I found out that her previous (bastard) boyfriend treated her in a similar manner. First he told her to not to talk so often over the phone, then came the "little" spaces of privacy which soon became so big, F is left to pick up whatever pieces is left of her heart. And such wounds, they don't heal easily.

So obviously, when Ivan tries something similar, whatever the intention, she gets all suspicious and unusually possessive and stuff. It doesn't help Ivan never gave her a proper reason for her to trust him except based on his words. Sure... Teaching me behind F's back and not telling her about it builds loads of trust. As if. So yeah. I understand why F is angry.

As for Ivan... I have no idea why he is angry. Angry cause I told F? Angry cause things are not going as planned? Angry cause he's fed up with F's attitude? Angry cause he expects F to understand but she doesn't? I really have no idea.

Whatever the reason, he called to tell me to deal with F cause he's fed up. Of course you idiot, I will deal with her. She's my friend after all. If you don't want to understand her side of the story and you don't want to deal with this, fine by me. As for me, I'll stay by F's side until she can steady herself again. He wants his space? He can have his space. Heck, both of them really should time out for a while... =.=

Letting go isn't easy... I know that. And now, I have to help F through that.

To love is to let go, if he comes back, it's meant to be... Still the question lingers: And what if he doesn't?

Back to the present?