Baka YX! I really miss you even though I just saw you this morning. Last night, I really wanted to stay, just to be near you, however inappropriate it may be. Sigh... The annoying part is that you know that I do like you. I really do. I just have no idea how to express it. How do I tell you I want to be near you, to hear your voice or feel your presence without appearing clingy, needy or stalkerish? >.>

Zzz... I really suck at interpersonal stuffs. I talk a lot but I'm not really eloquent when it comes to saying the right words. Personally, I don't mind doing sports with you (although I seriously suck at it), except for running. I don't expect you to like me back, but at least don't make me hope like that. I'm not that strong. Sigh. How do I show that I care? How do I shoe you that I like you? (Actually I'm not good at hiding my feelings, hence pretty much everyone else knows...)

Do you know everytime I receive an sms, my heart leaps in anticipation at the thought of it being you? You are the person I talk to the most (yes, sorry for being irritating at times), the person I think about the most; what you are doing, are you sleeping enough, are you too stressed, how you are in general... As much as I hate to admit that Ed is right, I do fantasize about us being together. But somehow, I don't want to hope, If I hope, I'll crash and burn. it's a lesson I've learnt a long time ago. Personally, I would rather you leave me alone so that I can kill this emotion of mine before I get hurt. I'm already defending you in front of my friends. That is how much I really like you. The only other person I would do something like that for is F.

Zzz... I just want to snuggle by your side. (I bet you'd make a nice cushion), I want to... just stay by your side. To watch you, laugh with (and at) you. Part of me wants to look after you, though I'm not sure how... I can listen if u want me to u know. Although I talk a lot, if u want to rant or anythingm I can listen. It's just a side I only show my family and F. I appear to be hopeless on my own, but in actual fact, I'm big enough to look after myself. It's just less lonely if I depended on someone. Sigh.

Anyhow. I gave you a piece of my heart. Whether it grows or dies, it's up to you. I made the first move. It's your turn.

P.S. My language deteriorates when I'm ranting it seems... XD

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